Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Friday 10 July 2015

The End


So this is my 53rd and final blog... well, at least for the time being!

I’ve had great fun writing over the past 10 months and have genuinely appreciated every single one of the thousands of views. Thank you all, whoever you may be, for reading in part or full, the ramblings I've spouted!

Why to end it? Well, why not?
HOW to end it is the trickiest question…

So I've been banging on about this for ages now.
It’s my own little mantra that I TRY to live by - though not always successfully I might add, as life isn’t always so easy as to consistently carry on with perfectionist and utopian standards. Nonetheless I constantly strive to retain hope in the words.

I blogged a bit about this at Christmas, as I like linking the theory to a child’s wonderment of that event, but I thought it would be nice to leave you with it today:

Belief
Throughout your life, you will often need the capacity to believe in yourself, and in your friends and your family, even when it’s incredibly hard to do so.

Love
Love is the greatest power you will ever know.
Love will light your life from the inside out, even during its darkest hours when you are sad. Love will never burn out as somebody somewhere will always love YOU.

Spirit
Spirit is genuinely real and enduring. The spirit of good and kind people or acts should never be underestimated


So have Belief, Love and Spirit in abundance, and thanks again for dropping by XxX

And that’s that.

Friday 13 March 2015

It Was A Woman’s World

When I first started writing blogs (September 2014) I couldn’t really have guessed just how they would be received. Would anyone read them? Would they get some lip service? Would they be genuinely liked? Who knew?

One particular earlyish effort was merely blogged because I was looking forwards to the return of the Sky 1 programme ‘Trollied’ – mainly because I used to work at a supermarket and found it was very close to the mark in its observations! I didn’t for a second think  that it would ultimately become the most popular blog I've written to date!
So on the back of that ‘Getting Trollied Again’ blog, I thought I’d give a further insight into those glorious retail years:

As previous readers will know, I spent the formative years of my employment working in a supermarket.
My first couple of years were enjoyed as a student on the Produce section and checkouts, before moving to working on the Delicatessen counter, initially as a student, but then as a full time member of staff once I’d left Sixth Form and was undecided about what I wanted to do with my life. So many people fall into this route, and I actually really enjoyed it for a long time before finding something outside of retail when I was in my early mid twenties.
A picture of a Deli Counter. Not mine though - I had some staff behind mine

After learning the Deli role inside out for a couple of years, I was fortunate enough to get a promotion to become the new Delicatessen Manager at a store in Brighton, starting just three days after my 21st birthday.

It’s fair to say that up till that point of my retail career, I’d seen a few things that had opened my naïve innocent young eyes a little, but nothing prepared me for the response I received on my first day in that new role, and indeed the first couple of months.

What could be so wrong?
Well specifically it was three things about me that made some of my new staff not that keen on me at all:
1.       I was introduced to them on the first day as God.
2.       I was young.
3.       I was male.

Being introduced as The Almighty was horrendously embarrassing. I have no idea why my introducer opted to say that, but I think maybe because he had been looking after the counter in the absence of a manager and wanted them to think I was there to ‘save’ them. I REALLY had to underplay that title in the first few weeks to stave off fears of being called arrogant. Talk about a stitch up.

As for ‘being young and male’ – well they both sound ridiculously ancient don’t they!?
But it was a genuine issue as Delicatessen counters traditionally (although not exclusively) had been a rather female dominated environment, and here I was, this boy, taking over the running of their baby and many of them were not at all comfortable with it. To them, I was the Anti Milky-Bar Kid in more ways than one.
Had I not been their manager, and just been joining as an assistant, I doubt it would have irked them so much, but it took a ton of effort to win certain staff over and prove I was worthy.

For example, during that first week I remember cleaning out the bins. I wanted to muck in and do everything and not be some aloof ‘suit’, so I thought this might help somewhat. Nope. The opposite in fact, as this action extremely upset one of the senior ladies as she’d done the bins for the last twelve years, and boy had I now stepped on her toes!

Whilst she was being comforted and consoled by another elder stateswoman (because she WAS in tears), my confidence wasn’t helped by the deliberately loud comment ‘I told them we should have been given a woman manager
This would take some skill to turn them!

Altogether I had 17 staff initially, which included two male students, three female students, and the rest were females old enough to be my mother or grandmother. It would be wrong though to say that ALL the elder females didn’t want me there. One Scottish lady in particular took to me quite early on and stated that she felt I’d been a bit stitched up, and that even before I’d arrived I was on a hiding to nothing as a colleague of mine at my previous branch had popped in the week before to ‘advise’ them about me. Her assessment being:
He’s a nice guy, but he’s not up to being a manager


...which was ironic given that less than 12 months earlier, I’d had to cover her sorry ass over a Christmas period when she couldn’t cope when acting up as a deputy manager herself. It was a shame to be knifed in the back before I’d even started, but she’d always been a touch bitter, having felt mistreated by the firm over her own career path over the years. I felt sorry for her but why try and hurt me?

All this made me think that perhaps the dislike of me from these people who I felt didn’t know me from Adam, might actually be a bit misplaced through gossip, so I tried not to fret too much about it.

Rather soon, I lost my senior assistant to another department. She had also applied for the Deli Manager’s job and failed to get it, and she wanted some more responsibility. She was fair to me in that she knew it wasn’t my fault, but she wanted to be appreciated and after she helped settle me in, I was happy to help her get a promotion to another role in the store.
Perhaps I didn’t help improve my standing with the others though as when appointing her replacement, I (fairly) opted for the best person, following interviews. As it happened, another male!

The furore that kicked off simply because I’d given the job to a male was unbelievable. It took intervention from the Personnel Manager to sort out the ridiculous complaints (sexism, ageism, experience-ism!) that arose because of it.
After a few weeks had passed, they started speaking to me again...

Time heals, and ultimately as a team, we all contributed to making our Deli the best performing counter in the district, and second best in the region. Given we were bottom of that list before I’d arrived, I was very proud of the work we’d all done.

My reward was to be appointed as the Delicatessen District Trainer for our area, which in turn made our counter the jewel in the area that other Deli Managers came from afar to admire and seek advice from, which thankfully, my lovely staff took immense satisfaction out of and ultimately meant I had earned their respect.

Fair play to some of the stronger critics, as when I reluctantly moved on from the store, they apologised for their preconception of me and offered that I’d actually been a pretty good manager when all was said and done! Praise from them was more important than praise from above, and the best compliment I could pay them back in return was that the two years I spent at that branch were two of the best years of my working life.
Looks like a prison hospital doesn't it!?

Leaving was a huge wrench. A destructive one too, as within a week of working at my new store, I knew I wouldn't be staying long. That was October 1998, and I left the company in May 1999.

Those 8 months were as bad as the previously 24 had been good.
I’d gained promotion on the basis that I completed a pilot assessment centre training course for Managers seeking advancement. I had furthermore been promised to be fast tracked through the full management course as specifically I had management experience under my belt already.. Ideally it wouldn't take anymore than 6 months to get fully qualified and trained up before I’d be given a proper large department of my own to manage.

But literally the week I moved to my new placement, they changed it. Who they were, I’m still not sure, but I got thrown in with a dozen or so university graduates on a post-graduate scheme and no such real opportunity arose for an actual promotion.
Essentially, despite 8 years with the company, starting from joining in 1991 and working 10 hours a week as a school boy to what I’d recently achieved,  I now had to complete a mandatory full year of training – literally I was told I had to relearn how to stock shelves!

Just to rub salt into the wounds, the university grads went straight on to a starting salary that was nearly £6000 higher than me! If it wasn’t for real it would've been hilarious.
I should say that at no time did I blame the grads – It wasn’t their fault at all. Indeed they had a huge amount of sympathy for me being entrapped in this time wasting slavery scheme, and two of them were placed at the same store I was. They were two of the nicest girls I could have hoped to be paired with and they at least made my time at the store much more bearable.

When I resigned, the District Manager offered apologies and said I’d been earmarked to have been a ‘40 yearer’ with the company – the store manager added that in his opinion, the company had failed me ‘criminally’.

It was a sad end to my time in retail really, and prior to October 1998, I couldn’t have envisaged my departing so soon. But all in all the 8 years were mostly pretty good, and watching Trollied on Sky 1 brings back some fab and funny memories.

Would I want to go back to retail though? Well never say never.

But no! NO! NO! NO!

Wednesday 10 December 2014

Father Christmas is REAL!


Whether you sit on the splintered commercialism fence or throw yourself fully into the spirit of the Christmas season, if you have children one thing is for sure… there will come a time when they will approach you and want to know the truth.
Is Father Christmas*   (*Santa Claus / Pere Noel / Babbo Natale / Daidí na Nollag / Moş Crăciun / Christmas Baba / Christmas Thaathaa / Weihnachtsmann / Dun Che Lao Ren / Papai Noel / Viejo Pascuero / Kanakaloka / Swiety Mikolaj / cha Giáng sinh)   real?”



(Hopefully) many years of your child’s life will have passed with them enjoying the wonders of Christmas before asking you that question, but how can it be answered in the most appropriate way?

I’ve been a dad for nearly a dozen years now, but it still doesn’t give me any right or interest in telling a fellow parent how to parent their child – but I recall how my own dad helped me to discover the mystery behind Father Christmas.

I was 13 years old (yes 13…I was a shy and sheltered young lad!), and decided to broach the subject in the kitchen one evening. So I listened intently, hoping for a decent explanation, following years of teasing from friends who insisted I was bonkers to still believe in a story about a man in a red cloak that carried a bag containing billions of presents.

He looked me in the eye – as he always did (and still does!) and started talking about the spirit of Christmas.

So did I buy his explanation? 
Well fast forward through several years full of experiences and life altering highs and lows, and I find myself now rapidly approaching 40 years old, around the same age my dad was when we spoke.
And I STILL believe in Father Christmas.

I found that the event of Christmas became less special as I moved from being a teenager into a man, though I strived to keep the spirit alive.
And then my own children were born, and their enjoyment of Christmas for me is like living through Christmas as a child all over again.

One cannot script this life. But if at all possible, including elements borrowed with pride from what my own dad told me on that winters day, in a deep and dark December in 1988, I tried to convey the below to my children when their time arrived…

“Until this time came, and until you asked this question, I couldn’t reveal the answer. But I believe Father Christmas is about 3 things:
· Belief
· Love
· …and Spirit

Belief
The existence of Father Christmas is not really a lie – it’s a secret kept to help children believe in things they cannot hold or see.
Throughout your life, you will often need the capacity to believe in yourself, in your friends and your family, even when it’s incredibly hard to do so.

Love
Christmas is the symbol of the greatest power you
will ever know: Love.
Love will light your life from the inside out, even
during its darkest hours when you are sad.
Love will never burn out as somebody somewhere
will always love YOU.

Spirit
But the best reason to forever believe is because
spirit is real and enduring.
Father Christmas is an embodiment of magical spirit that lives inside of everyone who believes in him. He is real for as long as you believe he is real, and not for one moment longer.
When your friends tell you that he’s not real, they are correct… he isn’t real for them anymore.
If you believe he is real, like I do, then you can keep Father Christmas alive in your heart for as long as you want to do so (even when you’re as old as I am!) for Christmas lasts even longer for those who choose to believe.
All the times you do kind things for people throughout the year expecting nothing in return, well THAT is also the spirit of Christmas”

Have Belief
Have Love
Have Spirit

…and have yourself a merry little Christmas forever   XxX